I had a captivating weekend of plant medication journeying that concerned taking a number of completely different substances: kanna, white lily, psilocybin (mushrooms), and ayahuasca… largely the latter two. I had solely completed ayahuasca earlier than (3 years in the past for 4 nights in a row in Costa Rica). I shared the insights from that earlier expertise right here: Classes From Ayahuasca. On this submit I’ll share my expertise of this latest journey whereas it’s nonetheless recent in thoughts and coronary heart. If you happen to’re quick on time and solely wish to skim the insights as an alternative of studying the small print about what it was like, be happy to scroll all the way down to the part labeled “Insights.”
This was gentler than the aya experiences 3 years in the past – smaller portions however a really layered impact. It was arduous to separate what results have been created by which substances. I acknowledged among the acquainted aya results just like the colourful, animating visuals after I closed my eyes, however the expertise additionally had components that have been completely different, and all of it type of blended collectively. This was the primary time I’ve completed psilocybin, however I don’t know the best way to separate out its results from every little thing else.
In Costa Rica it was very a lot an inward journey, and we didn’t work together a lot with one another through the 4 nights of aya ceremonies, though we processed our experiences in group classes collectively every morning afterwards. For that have we drank aya tea, however this time we had some chewable edibles of psilocybin and aya blended collectively.
The Costa Rica expertise had about 40 individuals doing the ceremonies collectively, and I knew 12-15 of them of them beforehand. This time there have been simply 8 of us, 9 for those who rely the facilitator. I a lot most popular the smaller group measurement, which made it really feel far more intimate and aligned.
This journey was a stunning and really loving social expertise with most of us all hanging out in the identical room collectively, sharing intimate tales, and having fun with tons of cuddling. I felt fully at house with that form of vitality… so yummy. Cuddling with two girls collectively is amongst my favourite issues in life, so even with out the substances, that will have put me within the bliss zone.
In Costa Rica, though they suggested us to attempt to keep inside with the group vitality, that often felt too intense and chaotic to me – and too stifling with all of the smells. I most popular spending most of my time outdoors, strolling barefoot on the grass or mendacity on a hammock wanting up on the moon and stars. I wanted the recent air, and it was so soothing to simply be round crops and never in the midst of so many individuals.
However for this expertise, though we have been welcome to spend time going off on our personal, I wished simply the alternative. I didn’t get lost to have any type of solo expertise, resembling listening to music with headphones. I feel most different individuals did a little bit of solo processing sooner or later, maybe for not less than 20 minutes. I simply wished to revel within the presence of the individuals there, particularly being in bodily contact with them. Everybody was emanating such clean and loving vitality, and I simply wished to be immersed in that as a lot as potential. Even after we weren’t saying something, it was so peaceable and current.
It was a really holographic expertise too. I felt very delicate to the vitality of everybody within the room, like all of us merged collectively spiritually, but it surely didn’t really feel thus far out that I used to be misplaced in intense visuals. Solely two individuals needed to do a little bit of purging early on, and I felt noticeably higher after they did. Every little thing individuals shared appeared to attach energetically on some degree, usually eerily so, as if all of us had many parallel components in our life tales.
It was additionally enjoyable conversing with individuals through the expertise. I keep in mind asking these questions:
- What do you want individuals noticed in you that they usually don’t see?
- What’s one thing you’ve by no means shared publicly earlier than (that you just’re keen to share right here… and assuming a cone of silence outdoors of this area)?
- What’s it like being a girl (to among the girls within the group)?
It was enjoyable listening to individuals’s solutions as a result of generally they stored getting distracted and mentally wandering off in all types of instructions, however all of it was fascinating to me. It was superb how deeply and simply we floated by way of a wide range of significant matters, but in a largely chill and relaxed manner. There have been numerous laughs alongside the best way too.
Time appeared to move very slowly too. After I noticed that it was 11pm, I mentioned, “Wow… it’s solely 11?” And when it was 1am, I felt prefer it ought to have been not less than 4am.
I keep in mind taking a look at some individuals closest to me whereas we talked and cuddled and seeing animated colours and patterns overlayed upon their faces. There have been some patches that seemed like glowing colours that shifted over time, and there have been animated trails of paisley-like patterns flowing round their faces too. It wasn’t tremendous intense, but it surely was lovely to take a look at. I’m wondering if that was only a hallucination impact or if it was some notion linked to perceiving individuals’s vitality fields – perhaps that’s only a matter of perspective.
We had the choice to eat one thing at evening to decelerate the consequences, and I feel everybody else ate (perhaps round midnight), however I wasn’t hungry, regardless of not having eaten something since midday. I wished to stay in a fasting state and permit the consequences to stay round longer. So I didn’t eat something until breakfast the following day.
As the consequences slowly started to dissipate, I stayed up until 3:30am immersed in dialog with a few individuals. Then as we lastly determined we must name it an evening, and I nonetheless wasn’t sleepy, I closed my eyes and loved the colourful animated visuals for about half-hour. I held completely different ideas in thoughts and noticed how they effected the patterns I noticed. I keep in mind testing ideas like: I really feel beloved, I really feel loving, and I’m love. Every of them created completely different patterns, with the “I’m love” sample being essentially the most colourful and animated.
I lastly fell asleep round 4am, and I awakened at 6am and felt conscious. I remained on my again for one more hour, nonetheless having fun with among the lingering results and eventually obtained up round 7:00.
I did some journaling in regards to the expertise, after which we had breakfast collectively and did a couple of hours of group processing.
I solely knew one pal there initially (who invited me), however by the tip it felt like everybody was an in depth pal. Most of us had mutual pals in widespread, so it was additionally like we have been a part of the identical social internet anyway.
This match properly with the intention to transcend earlier limits, which is our intention of the week for the Submersion Social Deep Dive that we’re presently doing. I wouldn’t say that the expertise itself was massively transformational – I’ll need to see what the long-term results are – however I actually loved journeying by way of a mind-expanding and heart-opening manner of connecting with individuals. A bunch of us wish to keep in contact, and I might like to have extra journeys like this, particularly with such open-minded, growth-oriented individuals.
One factor that was actually bizarre was that shortly earlier than heading over there, I realized that there’d be a cat in the home. I instantly thought, “Oh no,” since I’m allergic to cats. Positive sufficient, inside an hour after arriving (and earlier than we took something), my eyes started feeling watery, itchy, and puffy, and I figured I’d simply need to muddle by way of. I might deal with the crimson and puffy eyes and runny nostril for twenty-four hours – it might be uncomfortable, however I’d be okay.
Nonetheless, to my shock because the substances beginning kicking in, the allergy signs disappeared fully. The cat came visiting to me a couple of occasions, and I might inform it was not going to be an issue. It was just like the plant medication mentioned, “You don’t want that allergy proper now.” And I mentioned in response, “Sounds good to me!”
As I lied down on the sofa on the finish of the evening, the cat climbed on prime of me, licked my face, after which she camped out on my legs for some time. The allergic response solely began to mildly come again the following morning as every little thing was sporting off, but it surely was nonetheless manner lower than earlier than.
I utilized one key lesson I realized from Costa Rica, which was to ask the substances to go straightforward on me bodily. Training good intentionality and belief is so vital. Because the layers started kicking in, I felt flushed, obtained sweaty palms, and felt some delicate nausea and dizziness. My coronary heart price went from 70 to 90 bpm. I remembered to inform the plant medication: mild, mild, mild. I welcomed some psychological, emotional, and non secular depth, however I wished the bodily aspect to be delicate and never really feel like my physique was resisting it or scared. And that appeared to assist. Whilst I went to mattress, my coronary heart price was nonetheless 85 whereas mendacity down, so it positively obtained the blood pumping a bit quicker. The primary bodily concern all through the evening although was feeling very thirsty. I stored feeling parched with a dry mouth whilst I drank tons and plenty of water. That gave the impression to be a typical facet of the expertise.
One time after I went to the toilet and noticed myself within the mirror, I seemed very completely different to myself. I assumed… wow I look rather a lot older, perhaps by 10 years. Is that actually what I appear to be? I seen my grey hair round my sideburns and the crow’s toes on the perimeters of my eyes. And I noticed darkish circles below my eyes, though I didn’t really feel sleepy. However then I spotted that I used to be seeing myself extra by way of my coronary heart than my thoughts. I noticed somebody who was very completely happy, fulfilled, and sensible – somebody who was more than happy together with his life journey and had built-in so many classes and experiences. The “me” within the mirror simply stored staring into my eyes and reflecting again a lot love, but it surely didn’t fully really feel like he was the “me” that I’m used to. It was like he was an older me or perhaps a deeper a part of me or maybe one other me from a distinct dimension. I seemed again at him and held up my fingers to him in a heart-shape, and naturally he did the identical. Then I noticed him smile even greater as if to say, “Hold dwelling the best way you’re dwelling and doing what you’re doing as a result of it’s excellent for you.” I haven’t felt that self-love has been a difficulty for me, and this expertise solely took a few minute, but it surely felt very highly effective and transferring, like I used to be receiving love from my increased self or non secular self or one thing like that.
I really feel like all of the Subjective Actuality follow makes these altered states simpler to ask, expertise, and stream with. It’s simply so great to narrate to individuals – particularly individuals I simply met for the primary time – on the premise of co-creating lovely and harmonious experiences. And naturally plentiful cuddles.
I really feel like my love meter is stuffed as much as 200% now.
After the expertise, I did some journaling about it the following morning and wished to see if I might provide you with an inventory of 10 insights from it. Right here’s what I wrote:
- Our vitality patterns pool and mix. What one individual in a room experiences is a parallel expertise – energetically – for everybody current. Solely the small print differ. So reduction for one creates reduction for all. If you happen to assist to create ease for others, you create it for your self too, and vice versa.
- Cuddle area is very easy to enter when specializing in the enjoyment and peacefulness of it. It’s very straightforward to supply and settle for real invitations to the touch. It’s actually lovely to take care of one another by way of contact.
- It’s an actual honor to get to know individuals behind the scenes when honesty is extra vital than picture. Presenting a false or skewed picture to individuals prevents you from seeing them clearly as properly.
- Allergy symptoms are simply vitality patterns, and vitality can change.
- Limits and constraints assist to sculpt our human experiences, giving some construction and railing to our tales. Whilst we encounter limits in a single space of life, different areas stay open. Limits may also help us really feel grounded to some certainty whereas we discover.
- The luggage we supply could seem foolish to others, and it may be useful for us to see it as foolish too generally. Foolish behaviors are lighter and extra versatile than ones we take so severely.
- An attractive pathway to connection and intimacy is to be mild with individuals. Gentleness invitations openness and vitality stream. Gradual dancing could be simpler, but extra intimate, than quick dancing.
- A want that isn’t manifesting might be too skinny – too mono-dimensional. Add extra layers to it. Take a look at it from the 4D body-mind-heart-spirit angles, and see for those who’re actually asking for the entire package deal of goodies.
- The extra shamelessly you’ll be able to discover life, the better it’s for all times to convey you harmoniously aligned experiences. You may have life’s permission to discover and expertise.
- Evolving as a human being has extra to do with _____ than with _____.
- concord, victory
- co-creation, success
- experiences, outcomes
- motion, place
- invitation, validation
- curiosity, conclusions
I’m actually glad I mentioned sure to this expertise as a result of now I get to cherish the reminiscence of it for a very long time. I’m grateful that I began getting these sorts of invites after I was prepared for them. I really feel very open to extra experiences like this.