I am Not Accountable … (speech) #1


When 8 million individuals are lied to and satisfied to hate and detest a girl for what they appear to be, the place they’ve been, and who they’re, that’s a hate crime, and I’m not answerable for the feelings that had been evoked in those that misplaced respect for me, thought I regarded silly, had been disgusted by me, or who believed that this individual was saying about me. 

  • Im not a drug offender, sober cocaine 2006, just one semester drank and tried coke.
  • Im not a molester, I don’t discuss to or hug youngsters, and I’m uncomfortable by them.
  • Im not a pervert, I ended having intercourse as a result of I used to be given HPV Carcinoma Most cancers.
  • I don’t do myself to males or girls, I do myself to myself, when the time is true.
  • I desire older males, as a result of I don’t now have the self-discipline and power to chase males.
  • Im not aggressive, once I see somebody doing effectively, it’s a situation to be preserved.
  • I don’t meddle within the issues of others, I’ve my very own issues in life.
  • Im not a fraud, I attended a #scotus listening to in individual, I obtained into regulation faculty with 152 LSAT.
  • I’ve dated long run and certified for marriage based mostly on my well being at the moment.
  • Going to the hospital and being dumped communicated to me I used to be not of their future.
  • When somebody doesn’t see the longer term in you, meaning they need to date one other.
  • I used to be by no means homosexual rising up, homosexual was a situation that was brought about upon watching porn.
  • I don’t have anger towards males, I really feel rejected by them, managed by them, not sufficient.
  • I obtained a job as a result of my Dad advised me to get a job.
  • Im not a fraud. I blogged on a regular basis that’s how I grew on Alexa, its easy, anybody can.
  • Im not a fraud, I graduated from regulation faculty truthful and sq. with As and a 3.2 GPA.
  • Im not a fraud I used to be 3rd in my class at UWLA after the primary semester, taught WD.
  • Im not a drunk driver, I don’t drink, I don’t exit, by no means been clubbing as an grownup.
  • Im not a drunk driver, I don’t go to bars, I don’t drink, I don’t black out, Im chill drunk.
  • Im not a drunk driver, I don’t drink greater than two drinks at a time.
  • I didn’t exit after SOBER DATE 04-02-17, besides one January 2 yrs in the past: 2 beers.
  • I’m sober and have been sober since 2003, I by no means drank however my senior yr in school.
  • I don’t exit, I don’t date, I didn’t attempt relationship apps, till my 30s, Tinder: Dejan.
  • I’ve by no means been teased earlier than in my whole life or dangerous mouthed by anybody.
  • I don’t have hate or disgust for others, I don’t make eye contact, I don’t take a look at folks.
  • Im sincere and famous for my honesty at my AA assembly in Westwood, they know me.
  • Im conservative by nature, and solely tried to put on tighter garments purchasing at Zara.
  • I went to Zara in Paris France in highschool that’s how I discovered about Zara, 2002.
  • I studied Vogue at Summer season Vogue Design, and took artwork at Otis School of Artwork & Design, I took AP Artwork in Excessive College and obtained an A, I get pleasure from drawing, that could be a talent I’ve.
  • I don’t lie, I solely inform the reality, for instance:
  • (1) I referred to as the FBI and disclosed that I really feel like individuals are placing issues collectively on me, they usually advised me to not name, later it turned stylish, my Instagram.
  • (2) I referred to as the Police (911) throughout states of actual emergency, threats made or directed towards me, meant to intimidate me or deal with me as small, disrespect.
  • (3) I name the police at any time when anybody is aggressive towards me or shouts at me.
  • (4) I don’t really feel snug locations when Im not doing effectively, Staples or elsewhere.
  • (5) The fires had been very traumatizing to me, and determined to weblog and write books.
  • (6) I ended running a blog after I obtained sued, and created a industrial weblog (articles).
  • (7) I ended relationship, and took Abilify photographs, as a result of I used to be working at night time.
  • (8) Ive had two suicide makes an attempt one 2009 attributable to paranoia, 2017 listening to voices.
  • (9) I didn’t do cocaine 2017, a good friend introduced some over as soon as, I met at Qs.
  • (10) I used to be prescribed 5 adderrall 2017, and am now prescribed 3 adderralls.
  • (11) I take anti-psychotics not as a result of Im psychotic towards others, its for voices.
  • (12) I began hitting my head, as a result of that was my answer to suicide, as an alternative of swallowing a bottle of capsules, I might hit my head as an alternative, upon giving up, harm.
  • (13) voices are hurtful as a result of they are saying issues that aren’t true, as a result of I didn’t date, folks assume that Im purposefully not as productive or creating wealth on goal, its as a result of the meds make you sluggish and sedentary do much less in life.
  • (14) I despatched a number of requests over a interval of a yr to take away a FB web page, & web site, and nobody listened to me, and my situation worsened to schizophrenia. I didn’t deserve that Im not answerable for fires, floods, or any demonstrations by the homeless, I solely spoke to myself briefly after AA after which began writing as an alternative, and put collectively a guide, and one other guide new writing.
  • (15) It was beneficial by the taxi driver to go to the MLK Memorial at night time.

Current Emails Despatched to my Boss (about Gun Violence by Work a block away):

  • I symbolize I’m not represented 
  • I’m cited to however not credited 
  • I’m supported solely doing effectively
  • Once I’m not doing effectively I don’t name for assist
  • Once I’m doing effectively if one thing goes improper I’ve to cease all the things to make all the things go proper once more then can resume my work life 
  • Within the occasion issues are usually not going effectively both to me or to others it’s my accountability to determine what’s occurring to permit for that power available or directed towards any aspect and why
  • It’s my accountability to symbolize myself no lawyer or physician can symbolize me within the occasion there’s danger it’s my obligation to not distribute danger however to undo the hurt being brought about to my repute or others defended and towards what or who and never be used because the agent to sentence in attachment to circumstances 
  • It’s my perception that I’m good and am doing no improper not till somebody is chilly to me 
  • I acknowledge somebody as being chilly to me as a result of they won’t admit to me that others know me however then will attempt to maintain me accountable for individuals who know me after which wrongfully terminate me to accuse my connections or affect in life as figuring out a sense they “concern” of inheriting however then trigger to me.

Leslie Fischman <leslie.fischman@gmail.com>

8:08 PM (42 minutes in the past)

to Alex, Franklyn, Richard, SCOTUS, Employees, data

I’m not answerable for the 8 million acquired by distribution of images of me with out my consent. #worldpeace I’m solely accountable to answer the 15 million in visitors generated from my writings alone. That’s my backside line on the subject of accountability I can solely take accountability for my very own actions and the peace generate from someone’s admission of taking issues too far shouldn’t be my accountability to maintenance or defend or clarify for on my power time and misplaced wages to accommodate what goes improper and what’s inflicting shootings to happen it can’t be stopped till there’s an reverse response that counters the house created wherein individuals are responding in that approach sad in life towards others and taking their anger and aggression out on harmless folks.

If it’s not addressed it can’t be stopped and prevention requires not specializing in what goes effectively leaving issues alone when it comes to what’s executed effectively and never create notifications towards me of guilt not exhibited by means of me in personal or public or demeanor or power response or circumstance voices shouldn’t be my hell however a hell raised to over compensate for folks anticipating risk the place there’s none who anticipate aftershock or protection the place there’s none coming from me neither instilled inside me exhibited or taken out in public directed in direction of anybody.

I alternatively must cope with different folks’s aggression towards me if acknowledged pondering it’s proper or simply when it’s not what’s proper and simply goes to courtroom and since I’m not in courtroom or jail implies that I’ve not executed something improper I would like no underground or grassroots defenses of safety or assist and there’s no clarification to be demanded from me once I was at work performing to the most effective of my potential and instances settled by motions and mediation briefs and responses I wrote from my mind. That’s not underground that was DISCOMFORT created by seeing somebody constructive in a determined or nude circumstance requested for intercourse by cellphone from somebody I’ve really had intercourse with October 31, 2015.

Afterword:

My answer to feeling underneath assault is to take medicines or to hunt assist, however I cant assist or management who’s condescending towards me or unsympathetic, I don’t do something to harm others I’ve lived a totally solitary life since shifting away to varsity 2003, and performance independently alone, with no associates, and no boyfriends, Im often in a relationship. I’ve by no means had psychological well being points till regulation faculty and that is sensible as a result of as an grownup you’re launched to what your childhood was like, and what folks had been saying or are saying about you and your loved ones, and that turns into the primary time you’re feeling underneath risk, when different folks attempt to fake that they’re greater than you, that’s as a result of they don’t respect you and assume that they’re smarter than you, often insecure individuals who take out their anger on you. As a result of both they don’t really feel good, or they count on you to make them really feel good, after which assume that as a result of you’re feeling good and never making them really feel good, assume it’s a transference, when its solely a non-match between an individual who’s doing effectively busy, and an individual who desires different issues in life social, and Im not somebody with social or political targets in life, I’m all the time somebody who makes associates simply, is revered, and left alone in life, not bothered. There appears to be some resentment towards me due to my web site, I communicate to each circumstance and each challenge, and if its not being talked about by me both my points are (1) acute (means time is of the essence) (2) ongoing (Im in the midst of explaining a state of affairs or engaged on pondering to determine what the state of affairs is) (3) one thing has stopped (peaceable).

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I am Christian Nnakuzierem Alozie (Kris Kuzie Alozie). A native of Eziama Nneato in Umunneochi LGA, Abia State, Nigeria. I am an inspirational writer and a motivational speaker. And above all, a lover of charity.

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